Here are some random facts that lead up to this post:
Fact: I’m not entirely proud of my past. Fact: I can’t change what happened. Fact: My past made me who I am today.
Fact: The future hasn’t happened yet. Fact: I can’t predict the future. Fact: My future is dependent on the things I do today.
Fact: A tsunami devastated Japan a few hours ago. Fact: It may hit Hawaii in an hour.
So, it’s 2:00AM and instead of sleeping I’m having a revelation. All these facts that I’ve heard time and time again finally just clicked. You see, I’m basically in the best relationship anyone could be in, ever. He treats me like every girl wishes a guy would treat her, only better. And he thinks I treat him pretty well too. I’m 23. My boyfriend is 26. We’re at that age where people can finally take us at least semi-seriously when we say we’re in love. And while everyone tells us how happy they are that things are going good between us, I’m over here happy too. Only it also makes me scared. Scared I’ll make the same mistakes of my past, or that he’ll make the same mistakes of his. Scared of the future, and if there’s a future between us. Wondering. Worrying. Waiting… But at 2 in the morning, after hearing about the tsunamis, everything seems so much clearer.
It’s like waiting to hear about the tsunami. We’re letting what happened with Japan make us scared of the future. But the truth is, this wondering, worrying, waiting… what does it do for us? Nothing. The way I see it is we can either sit around thinking about the past, worrying about the future… or we can live in the present. The future hasn’t happened yet, but since it’s dependent on what we do today we can’t just wait around. We must prepare and live life to the fullest.
Same goes for my relationship. Instead of dwelling on the past, how about leave it there taking with me only the lessons and fond memories. And please believe I’m ready to break up with my future, cause it’s a stranger I don’t even know. You must of heard this a million times but it took me a while to catch on so I’ll just say it, the best way to live life is to use the lessons from the past to prepare for the future and live in the present.
Please excuse my rambling but it’s 2AM, a tsunami might hit us, and I just had a revelation.